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11:13 pm

new journal:

/~peas__pass

add meee. :) and ill add you.

01:57 pm

http://community.webshots.com/user/anniekraemz


new picturess. :)

12:10 am - i wrote this last year...i miss writing.

Her body trembles as the wind rages.
Her toes are polar on the indurate ledge.
She was in her room turning her pages;
All of a sudden she is upon edge.
The climb out of the window was quick;
it was the decision that took so long.
She looks down on the city; hears its tick.
The serene dark tries to tell her she’s wrong.
As her eyes search the sky for some answer,
a quick reply is sent as stone silence.
The child knows of nothing but this monster.
She wants to leave her lack of excitements.
The buildings cast shadows in the vast night,
and this girl prepares for her transient flight.

07:05 am

Say 17 things to different people that you have never told them. They can be 17 different people, or a few of the same. Don’t say whom each one is for.

1. I love you and I;m sorry that you arent happy with your day to day. Im always here and when you come home Im finally relieved because i know your safe for at least 12 hours. I love you so much.

2. I miss you right now even though youve only been gone for an hour. i love you and im scared to leave you in a few years, im scared youll leave me.

3. when you were in the operating room i was shaking i was so scared. ill never forget how much i wanted to cry when i saw you laying their and through the whole recovery. i love you and im so grateful to you.

4. we have become so close this year and i love being shady with you. you are so beautiful and i envy your ease around people. your smart and funny and perfectly compatible for me, my best friend.

5. we used to be so much closer, i get this sharp pain in my chest when i think about you.

6. sometimes you make me want to throw up, just to think of what i sacrificed for you. other times your my best friend.

7. i have the biggest crush on you and all i want is for you to lean over and kiss me one day.

8. you frustrate me. i know that it will never work, but still...you could have called.

9. you kind of annoy me, i know i love you and that we are gunna just become closer, but sometimes you are way too clingy.

11. i think you can be a bitch, but you are one of the funniest girls i know. we had such a good time on new years.

12. i remember when this was all we had, do you?

13. i have always wanted acceptance from you and this summer i sort of got it, but you still dont treat me like her, or her.

14. haha your ghetto, but a good guy in general.

15. im so jealous of you and its really hard for me to sit there and listen to your weekend events because somehow i feel that that should have been me, and not you.

16. i really really dislike you most of the time, but i pretend i dont and i just sort of nod when others talk shit about you, im sorry.

17. this is to myself, and its okay that you know. stop trying so hard to fit in with everyone and anyone. stop trying to be someone your not. stop putting yourself down and start realizing your potential. have some confidence or else nothing is going to work out right. trust your family..trust your friends..trust in that higher power. you need that right now.

01:46 pm

go to my webshots, my username is anniekraemz

09:52 am

its christmas!! i got alot of nice things, really nice digital cameraaa. <333 and perfume and socks and clothes and candy and a lesiure suit?? haha and a new boombox and dirty dancing dvd, movie passes. all the good stuff.

<333

07:13 pm

PS. its my birthday in a week and a day.
:):)

05:56 pm

yeah so today was alright. i was running late this morning so my appearance wasn't top but whatever. im starting a diet, 4 weeks..12 pounds. we'll see. i like it, i feel better. yep soo..i did really well this quarter in school, which im so psyched about. of course i only have one really challanging course, but eh. last night i had a dream about him and he was nice to me. we were on a plane or something. it was nice. anyway back to today. after rehersal, which sorta sucked, i came home and drank water. alot of it. hah. then i went on the computer, did some homework. and here i am 6 oclock. i need to do math homework and chem homework and english, too, but it's alright. i feel empty and its kind of nice. i like this.


ps. my moms being mean to me and i am doing laundry.

Current Mood: chipper

09:56 am

i had an adventurous weekend.

well friday i babysat and made 25 bucks which is awesome. then i went to meghans house fer the partaayy. whee. i was in a weird mood and kept saying really gay ass jokes that made meghan pee her pants. life was good. thenn my mom picked me up after jumping my brothers car cos hes dumb and he and kim were in the car listening to the radio?? i dont know what ever. then last night i wasnt sure what i was going to do and i ended up with larae and alexis my loves and we ran around and i complained. then we saw dan and bill and we got pizza with them. then my momma came and i slept in her bed and i coughed alll night. whee. today i have christys sweety 16 which im looking forward too. :):).


lifes alright.

Current Mood: content

03:31 pm - mmhmm.

sometimes my brother really really pisses me off. he doesnt understand that when i say he cant go in my room, he cant. raaa.

anyways. today was alright, oh man i totally embarassed myself in front of a hot boy. lol im retarded. and my body wouldnt listen to a brain so it like spazzed out. anyways. tonight i had dave and j9s parrty, but im not going for a few reasons and im happy that ill get to hang out with my friends. friday is up in the air but satruday hopeuflly im hanging out with shannon. oh man i almost forgot, im getting a B in chem! im so proud of myself. :):):) all i have to do is get at least an 85 on the quiz friday and im set. which i know i can do. haha im such a dorky honor student. i love my critical issues class and acting is fun too. today i had my headphones so it was nice to just chill out and listen to music.

mmhmm call me with plans tonight.

04:08 pm - random pictures that clog your friends list.

okay its not a booger. its a shadow. or a booger..

02:52 pm

hey kidss..

lily got a hair cut/dye job and it looks amazing, so to lily my love, its beautiful.

hmm so i got an 83 on a chem test..go me! i was happy. todayy was alright in general boring and i was very tired. tonight im going to actually do my homework hopefully..

04:24 pm

im trying, im trying. but things lately have just been crap. ive been making bad decisions, but even the results feel right. its so weird. i keep running my mouth and i cant help myself anymore. im sorry im sorry im sorry.

Current Mood: crappy

02:48 pm - ehh library.

ehhhh meh. anyways. today i stayed after for keyclub, and it ended ten minutes ago, meaning i have to wait for the 3:45 bus. so then i get to go straight to work until 9:30. yes. yesss.

so im kind of mad because i got ditched today. and lied too. so fuckkk youuu.. okay i feel better. im seriously going to stop being so damn nice to everyone because its a waste of mine and their time. everything is blocked on here except livejournal. worddd yo. yeah so today was okay. kinda boring and long. fell asleep in english, burned stuff in chem. its kinda fun. not really though. im happy cos im doing good in history, 100s on everything. its easy because its basically the same class i took last year just dumbed down. yeppp. i cant wait till friday, degrassi party! and then saturday is apple picking which sounds gay but should be really cool. yep. i wish i had something better to do then to sit here in the library and updating my lj. but i dont. sooo yeah.

Current Mood: bored

09:38 pm - yes i clog your friends list.

+ survey +

.*. name: Annie,
.*. birthday: Dec 10th, sweet 16th: January 29th, BE THERE.
.*. piercings: two in each ear.
.*. tattoos: none
.*. height: 5'4
.*. siblings: erick- 17.
.*. pets: pennie the dog, nosey the cat.
+ last +
.*. movie you rented: umm...last movie i watched was beauty and the beast.
*. song you listened to: christina agulara- im okay.
.*. song that was stuck in your head: that beauty in the breakdown song.
.*. song you`ve downloaded: rent--take me or leave me,
.*. person you`ve called: jon, that asshole.
.*. person that`s called you: max.
.*. tv show you`ve watched: hah drake and josh.
.*. person you were thinking of: jon.
.*. you have a bf or gf: no.
.*. you have a crush on: this asshole, a best friend, and a near stranger.
.*. you wish you could live somewhere else: mm.
.*. you believe in online dating: ehhh meeting someone online is okay..dating and not seeing each other? no.
.*. you want more piercings: cartilage and tongue. but tongues never going to happen
.*. you like roller coasters: YES<333
.*. you write in cursive or print: both. like cursint. or prive. sdjghkjh both.


+ best +
.*. gum: orbit or bubblelicious.*. tv show: DEGRASSI!!!
.*. thing in the world: warmth.
.*. thing to collect: shh.

+ favorite +
.*. song: i have a few.
.*. thing to do: laugh and have a 'high' feeling. run around.
.*. sports: fh
.*. beverage: soda.
.*. movies: garden state, dirty dancing, more.
.*. bands: mmmm many many..
.*. ever cried over someone: yesss
.*. ever lied to someone: yess
.*. ever been in a fist fight: not really.
.*. ever been arrested: nope.
.*. shampoo do you use: apt 5
.*. perfume do you use: love spell.
.*. shoes do you wear: adidas, flip flops, chinese people shoes.
.*. are you scared of: most things.

+ number +
.*. of drugs taken illegally?: 2
.*. of people you consider enemies?: none.
.*. of cd`s that I own?: ehh a good amount.
.*. of times your name has appeared in the newspaper?: errr?
.*. of scars on my body?: like 5.
.*. of things in my past that I regret?: a few.

+ yes or no +
.*. you keep a diary: lj? xanga?
.*. you like to cook: kinda.
.*. you sketch while you are on the phone: doodle.
.*. you have read a book in the past week: yepp
.*. you replace the toilet-paper roll immediately: never.
.*. you like crossword puzzles: yess.
.*. you have visited the Eiffel Tower: nopee
.*. you have a secret you'll never tell: ehm. maybe.
.*. you often have people over at your house: no.
.*. you like America: sure.
.*. you talk in your sleep: perhaps? who really knows.
.*. you like hiking: no ma'm
.*. you shave regularly: yess.
.*. you smoke: on the occasion.
.*. you can whistle: yessir
.*. you bite your fingernails: yeahh.
.*. you have hit your father or mother in anger: my dad, yeah.
.*. when your alarm clock sounds, you get out of bed: i dont have an alarm clock.
.*. you hate parties: i love parties.
.*. you have stolen money from your parents: yes.
.*. you have fired a gun: noope

+ Do +
.*. you often have the last word: mm sometimes.
.*. you give money to homeless people: i dont rememver?
.*. life treats you well: life is not a person, how can it treat you a certain way?

+ I ... +
.*. I am: sore.
.*. I want: a boy to take care of me. keep me out of so much trouble.
.*. I have: alot of stuff.
.*. I wish: i only had school like..once a week.
.*. I hate: assholes.
.*. I miss: camp.
.*. I hear: nelly.
.*. I search: wtff.
.*. I love: lots of things
.*. I always: play a part.
.*. I'm not: so sad.
.*. I dance: sometimes
.*. I sing: too much.
.*. I cry: like..5 minutes ago.
.*. I am not always: right? wtfff!
.*. I write: in my math notebooK!
.*. I win: poker?
.*. I lose: Q BERT.
.*. I confuse: this is dumb.
.*. I should: go to bed. or finish my chem.
.*. I need: a bra?
.*. Mother thinks I am: a saint.
.*. It makes me happy when: i feel wanted and appreciated.
.*. It upsets me that: i make really stupid mistakes

+ Do you ... +
.*. Take a shower everyday?: usually.
.*. Think/know you`ve been in love?: no.
.*. Want to get married?: yes
.*. Get motion sickness?: barely ever.
.*. Think you’re a health freak?: no.
.*. Get along with your parents?: soemtimes.
.*. Like thunderstorms?: yeah ish.

+ Or ... +
.*. Cuddle or makeout: both.
.*. Milk chocolate or Hot chocolate: ew.
.*. Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
.*. Wendys or McDonalds: wendys.
.*. Shower or Bath: shower
.*. Night or Day: dfjgkd depends.
.*. Rain or Snow: snow
.*. Banana or cheese: cheese.
.*. Hot or cold: cold.

+ In the last 24hrs have you ... +
.*. Cried: yes.
.*. Helped someone: yeah
.*. Bought something: yeaa
.*. Gotten sick: MY THROAT HURTS
.*. Gone to the movies: nope
.*. Gone out to dinner: brunch count?
.*. Said “I Love You”: yessss
.*. Written a real letter: nah.
.*. Talked to an ex: no.
.*. Missed an ex: err.
.*. Written in a journal: yes.
.*. Talked to someone you have a crush on: yeahhh.
.*. Had a serious talk: kind of.
.*. Missed someone: yeah, i miss these people.
.*. Hugged someone: yeah.
.*. Fought with your parents: kinda.
.*. Sneezed: i don't think so.

11:29 am - so.

yesterday i tried out for the one acts, it went okay. i know im not going to get a part, but i think i did pretty good and itll be good to get my name out there. today i plan on rehi-lighting my hair and such, im fasting for the day. cleansing my body and such.
school i guess..has been lonely. its hard to find where i fit in, becasue my lunch sucks, my classes kinda suck too. friends wise i mean. i cant find that happy medium im looking for. not the crazy herion kids, but not board game kids either. i dont know, im confused about myself and where i belong right now. im sure it will even out. mmm.

09:58 pm

Well maybe I'm the faggot America.
I'm not a part of a redneck agenda.
Now everybody do the propaganda.
And sing along in the age of paranoia.


So i'm having a conceited conversation with hannah, but it is very true.

this is all i ever need. and its all i ever will care about.

09:26 am

seriously, i feel invisible. im not even kidding. i stand there. and no one sees me at all.

07:04 pm - how could they both know..

..that i can't say no.

02:05 pm - ge the cool..